Well week 2, still breathing but I would call it living. Averything tastes go awful, the government is giving me $450 a fortnight, yeah, my rent is $600 a fortnight, thankyou you bunch of miserable... Anyway not really sure if there is much point in all this. ... View more

I had to go and freeze some male stuff today just in case. What a surreal experience that was. I'm sure there are other guys who can relate. Public hospitals can't even seem to afford a magazine for the guys, or maybe it's just some stupid religious crap that stops them supplying a magazine of some sort. Anyway for someone who is scared and stressed it was absolutely a waste of time. And I should face it no woman has been interested in me in over a year so I can't see me needing it anyway. Sorry just having a purge... More dental work tomorrow and I haven't even started radio or chemo... ... View more

It's funny people keep telling me about the merits of positive thinking but I just keep finding that I can't help thinking the worst is going to happen and then when everything ends up not that bad, my spirit rises and I get though. So I think will keep doing it my way and they can so it their way. So getting a PEG is horrible and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy (not that I have any enemies) but I'm alive and the pain just helps me remember that I am ALIVE. Thank you everyone, your support was wonderfull!!! ... View more

I go in tomorrow for a tummy PEG. Have to say I'm pretty scared at the moment, the tought of feeding myself through a tube is about as much as I can take. Thank god for the wonderful people that work at RPAH, they are so kind and supportative. And thankyou to everyone for you friendly messages. ... View more

Thank you so much, I have be feeling quite isolated and alone, it really helps knowing people out there understand. I hope everything is alright with you and again thank you. ... View more