Hi There, My Father was diagnsed with Esophagus Cancer Jan 2011 aftr the symptoms of not being able to swallow his food properly, he was 57. He was diagnosed straight away and started chemo and did 12 weeks of that before having the major operation in June 2011 to remove the cancer, all his other vitals were very good, he recovered quite well from the operation up until September last year where is breathing started to become more difficult, he found himself on an inhaler machine up to 12 times a day, we saw lung doctors and heart doctors but no one could tell us why this was happening, also adding to this his body was swelling up, ie his ankle and leg and belly area. December 10 he left home to go see a friend and was happy to go and felt 'good' that day. On his way home, he managed to pull over in his car and suffered a massive heart attack. My mum called me to go have a look for him as he wasnt answering his mobile phone. As i was driving up the street i saw his car on he side of the road, as i opened the door he was slumped over, i screamed and tried to wake my Dad and managed to pull people over to help me get my dad out o the car. I then called the ambulance and was advised to start CPR, i have never had to do this before let alone on my own family member, my older brother then arrived and he helped me with our father, we could not get our father revived, the ambulance then arrived and after trying CPR also they advised us that our father had passed away. I am struggling to get over this, it has been 6 months, i am now dealing with this a lot worse than the first few months, i have quit my job because i cant focus, i dont see many friends anymore, and i have become very recluse, i live with my fiance and he has been great but i can tell that my mood is affecting our relationship, I find myself so unpredicatable, up and down like a yoyo and on the verge of crying all the time. I cant get passed what i saw/did that day and apart from that i see my mum suffering so much, my parnts had been together for 43 years married 40. My younger sister at the time was living in Darwin and moved back once my father passed away. I am on here with my story as im not sure how to deal with everything, this is the first time i have opened up about this. Thankyou for reading x JN ... View more