Hey Bexsie Merry Christmas to you. :) Glad I came across ok, sometimes I wonder with my writing skills and chemo brain. I have had melanoma albeit amelanotic, which is slightly different to the mainstream melanoma. It is a tough thing to be diagnosed with and it is hard to get through but it is possible. I like Jim Stynes approach and even though he did not survive he was able to return to hope and maintain it for the most part. I think that is what helped him get through all that he went through. The waiting part is the worst bit, once you get a diagnosis and subsequent treatment plan of some sort it is easier. You have something more tangible and real to focus on. Over thinking is a trap and I try and keep my mind in neutral and remind myself that my thoughts may not be right as I haven't yet been told and just channel my thoughts into another place or zone. I hope your pain is not too bad for you and maybe you could talk to the docs about getting that under control? I remember with this last cancer the amount of pain I was in and it was very difficult. I used to have a high pain threshhold but I don't think I do anymore. Take care Julie ... View more