Dear Peanutz, your post made me smile....not a chance! thats cute.I live in hope now. I have been given some fabulous information from the helpline here so I am going to wade my way through it. My mind is made up, Im not going anywhere, he just has to accept that and Im hoping he will eventually. But if I can make myself fully informed I may not seem so much as a burden to him on this journey hes now on. so thats my project now, become fully informed. Im really lucky that I have the support of my family and friends in this which Ive told him about. So when he does contact me again, he will know he wont have to worry about me worrying about him - that I am fully supported. I love this man alot and Im not about to walk away right now - hes way way too important to me to do that. Im going to stay and fight, both the cancer and for my man! But your experience has told me not to give up, to keep hanging in there. I feel a bit more empowered thanks to you and the stuff Im reading. Thank you so much, I wish you and your guy nothing but the best. Will keep you posted. Hugs XXX ... View more