Hi Nicole, 4 months ago I lost my Nan, she was like my mother and had helped raise me my whole life. In January 2011 she was diagnosed with breast cancer, and 12 months of chemo and radiation followed. In 2012 she was diagnosed with secondary liver and lung cancer. She was admitted to hospital 2 months after being diagnosed, and was there for a month. For the last 2 weeks my mum and I slept there multiple times because she could have gone at any time. It was traumatic seeing her in the state she was in, she was in pain, confused and unsettled, but she truly is in a better place now. Although she was much older then your mother, she was perfectly healthy before hand so it was just as surprising for us. Time does help, I still cry but it's much less often, and I've started uni and started to move past my grief a little. I hope it becomes a little easier for you to, grief is exhausting and consuming, but it will get better. ... View more