Hi all, I am new here, I have been looking for a place to get advice, vent and let out all the emotions that go with this awful, ugly monster! Not to mention what it does to families, they always say that when things are low you see the "real" people, how true! My mum (57) was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in Aug 07, firstly they though she had a gallstone she initially went to the doc thinking she had a virus and then over the weekend develope Jaundice, scans followed and they found secondary spots on her liver, it took another 3 and a half weeks to actually get a diagnosis. Nearly 12 months on, she is a shadow of her previous self and currently getting really low. The chemo has not stopped in the past 11 months, with very minimal change, not really worth writing home about. My 2 other siblings live away and I have been there as much as I can, and will continue to be no matter what. I see it that u just get on with what needs to be done and make it happen, the other 2..well one has to give the run down on how it affects her and how she has to organise things...the other tells me that I need to take more pressure off Dad, I don't know what more I can do..that is my vent...they annoy me!! I cannot imagine what it will be like to not have her here, for Dad, for me, for my brother and sister and our children, but most of all for her. I see her laughing and watching my son, then I see a look come over her...I don't want to contemplate what she is thinking but deep down i know. We have made the most of the past 12 months, christmas and birthdays have been extra special, even if they have been in a hospital room. My wish is to keep mum as comfy as she can be and for her to be home for as long as possible. I will have to help Dad care for mum and it is something that i am so scared of doing. I really think that is enough from me for one night...take care all. Flee       ... View more