That will be a lot for you to take on with your brothers as well that must feel so overwhelming. Also with your dads sisters in NZ it must be hard not having that extra support. its good that he is feeling good after the first round hopefully he has a good run with the treatment and not get too sick. I agree its hard to distract yourself from whats going on and you feel guilty if you dont spend time with them or if you try and do some of the regular things you would do.i try to go out for a run to clear my head but sometimes I just can't muster the strength to go.. the days feel so long! im just exhausted with it all.. being away from my own things and my partner is just adding to the pressure to get through each day but then I feel guilty for feeling like that since its my dad that's going through the pain not me. Dads been in hospital for over a week and still not great. Spoke to his oncologist and we dont think continuing with chemo will do any good. Its more about making him as comfortable as we can for now. Its a bit to take in at the moment. hope your dad goes well this week.. take care ... View more

Hi Sophie Sorry to hear about your dad too its a really crappy thing to watch someone go through. we had a set back this week dad was meant to start his second round of chemo on tuesday but his blood work came back not so good and ended up being admitted into hospital. His kidneys aren't coping so not sure how long he will be there for. I'm just so exhausted trying to make sure everyone else is ok and coping I forget about me. How are you coping with it all? How is your dad? ... View more