Oh Emily, meant to say thank you - i think anxiety is what might be the problem. Did you have panic attacks, and were you afraid being around people? This is relatively new for me, and it is uncomfortable. I remembered too a couple of other things that have added to the angst of the journey. My husbands very first chemo session 6 years ago killed him- anaphylactic shock. They brought him back to life. After first surgery, he was sent home with pneumonia, and we nearly lost him then. He was rushed back to hospital where a nurse worked all night keeping him alive. He was sent home with stitches still in, and they infected. Just one darn thing after another. Lol. A holiday would be nice! Take care, thank you for listening, allowing me the safety to share. You'r very kind. Xx ... View more