Thank you so much for your message. You are absolutely right - I am looking too far forward and anticipating what is going to happen which in turn is making me panic/worry for what is ahead when I just need to focus on today.
She has done so well for 5 years - she has taken the chemo in her stride even though it has completely battered her at times and soldiered on.
I guess this week I have just panicked a bit - results came back as they do every couple of months and this time things aren't so good. We know 'it's going to happen - it's terminal, the doc has confirmed that she can't be cured BUT I need to stop focusing on this.
Thank you. Your message has bumped me off the road of panic and back onto the road of 'living for today'. So after reading your message - today I concentrated on mum's Christmas present!
Thank you very much.
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My mum is now into her 5th year of battling ovarian cancer. She is always open and honest with us but I feel she keeps some stuff away from us to protect us. She has been on and off chemo over the years and we were told that her cancer is terminal and that chemo is been used to manage the cancer not to cure it.
I am finding it hard not knowing what is next? She is suffering a lot of symptoms now - appetite loss, weight loss, nausea, vomiting, sleeplessness and pain under her ribs. Her breathing is also becoming sharp. Her latest test results indicated dangerously high tumour markers. What's next ?? Is this it? Are we heading down the final path? It's so hard not knowing. I wish I could just google it and I would find the answers to my questions for example the screen will blink back at me.....ok your mum is going to start feeling this, that etc - this means she has such and such time left.......I know crazy but its the unknown that is so scary.....
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Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.