Firstly hello everyone I am a newbie to this site this journey . I already feel you are all in my head hahahahah thinking feeling going through same stuff I am. I am sorry for what you are going through , and I can relate . My husband has just recently been diagnosed with lung cancer stage 3 and told because of where it is in the lung etc that his time is also limited . Right before his diagnosis and for the past 16 mths we have done nothing but fight , as he was not working and just laying around moaning about pain. having gone to drs so many times and drs just telling him he had arthritis and to learn to live with it basically. Me thinking he was just being lazy gave him grief and nasty grief every single day about being a bludger and what kind of man lets his wife work full time etc etc only to now find out the pain in his back is the cancer and they have put him on morphine straight away and had to increase the dosage three times already in 5 weeks . I seriously was thinking I was heading for divorce. The cancer was finally picked up once he started to lose his voice and he has this very bad husky voice that is hard to hear or understand . I now have guilt and doing every thing I can to make it up to him . He is a musician and has so much stuff and a lot of it is high end stuff that I know nothing about . I find myself worrying about how will I go about selling it and getting what it is worth or close to it , and not selling something worth thousands because it looks to me like it is worth ten bucks. I felt so bad thinking about this kind of stuff, until last week when I finally told him and asked if while he is still well enough could he put a price range and stick a sticker on it so when the time came I could do him justice for all the yrs he has collected this gear . I held my breath thinking I will be accused now of wanting him to die etc etc but he didnt he actually took it really well and said he understood why I had brought it up . Maybe try that approach with your husband about the farm equipment . I also found it helpful to move on from our horrible past 16mths by writing an email to him and I didn't hold back and I cried the whole time I wrote it as did he when he read it. It has brought us closer together again and he now knows he isn't alone in this journey.I also pointed out to him that while it was him that had the cancer, it was also a bad diagnosis for me and I was scared for him, scared for us, and equally scared for me when he is gone .We have still had our fights in the last 5 weeks and the things that pissed me off about him before still do now .Don't think that will ever change . I agree the things you want to do make sense but I am guessing he feels like everything that was who he is and stood for is being taken from him. Do You have a neighbour also into farming that you could go talk to and ask if he wont sell up when the time comes would they help you . sorry I have no real answers to help but please know you are not alone and your honesty was so refreshing to me and I am sure so many others on here . I lok forward to getting to you know all more and being a part of your journey while you a part of mine . Ps my typing punctuation skills are terrible so good luck reading heheheh ... View more