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I can't go away for a few days. i wish i could. mum depends on me for everything. i also have 3 dogs to look after. I have to get mum all her meals and bring them to her because she wont come out of her room. I have to sponge bath her, when she rarly lets me because she refuses to go out of her room (her hygiene has hit rock bottom it's really bad and i can't get it through to her how important hygiene is and she is incontinent to). she is capable of going into the bathroom (id still have to help her shower in the bathroom) but she just won't even attempt to try to help herself. she has made herself virtually bedridden except when she moves off her bed to use the commode. We tried to and still try to get her to do what the doctors etc told her to do to keep her mobility up but she just refused to do it. I have thought about telling her when she is being nasty that i will not be helping her until she can be nicer but i can't do it. And it would be my luck that she would scream and shout until the neighbors called the police. I just can't seem to please her at all. I feel awful and bad about feeling the way i do about i don't like being in the same room as her anymore, i dread having to talk to her, I sometimes think that i don't want to be her carer anymore. I love her, she is my mum, she raised me as a single parent and i think she did a great job and i am grateful for that. that makes me feel even worse knowing what she sacrificed for me while she raised me. ... View more

Mum won't talk to anybody, i have tried to get her to. Before she confined er self to her bedroom she was seeing a psychologist but she said she didn't like her. She has confined herself to room after having a scare on the stairs in november (townhouse). When i have tried to talk to her calmly about her behaviour she turns it into a 'your worse than me" thing. She is on no current treatments for her cancer. She did have radio therapy about 6 months ago. And now because she won't leave her bedroom there is nothing her doctors and specialists can do for her, as in the way of seeing if the radio therapy worked or not etc. We do have a home nurse come about once a month and she is great, but mum behaves herself when she is here. mum only lets 2 people see her nasty side who is me and my aunt, everybody else she is really good. When mum realizes that something hurt me or gets to me she will use that over and over again. Latley its been fat taunts. I am a big size woman and mum was bigger than me until she had treatment (she has lost over 50kg). I tried to explain to her that out of all anybody she should know how it feels but she just says that's she's doing to help me. Every single time we are in the same room she wants to argue and fight and get nasty. Its so draining. I know i am not the best carer in the world as i have my own health problems (mum picks at that to constantly not beleiveing it, in my house it's usually if mum can't feel it then it doesn't exist, she has been that way longer than having cancer though) but i am doing the best i can. ... View more