Hi ChrisandLisa12 and Susy, Thanks for your thoughts and feelings. It is comforting somehow to know that others feel as you do. Lung cancer is such a terrible disease. I read a lot about it when Ed was diagnosed and sadly there was not much hope to be found. He didn't want to read about it at all. And I too am struggling to remember all the good times - most of my thoughts are about the final weeks and months of his life. But I hope this will change and I will be able to remember the fun we had together - we had over 34 wonderful years. I've been invited by friends to travel to Germany where we spent nearly 20 years off and on when he was working there and am finding it hard to make the commitment to go because he won't be there with me. My thoughts are with everyone who is going through this pain and confusion - it does help to share. Love to you all, Lynn. ... View more

It's good to hear from someone who understands the sadness and pain I have been feeling. Only someone who has lost their love so young and so quickly can possibly understand. I still find myself forgetting that he's gone. I keep reliving his final few days and it has helped to talk to Ed's G.P. and also to a counsellor - but nothing takes away the feeling of loss and pain. I have found that it helps to keep talking to friends and neighbours and maybe join a Yoga class or exercise class - I have chosen exercise and it does help to get me out of the house. I was told that only time will help ease the pain and so far it has helped a little but the grief returns and I don't expect that to change - I will always love and miss him. ... View more