I would already do colectomy if I had polyps only in colon / rectum, I would risk with that. But I'm one on 13% of cases who has polyps in duodenum also. So I'm not sure if my polyps from duodenum will go to small intestine, or not. I'm not sure if there is a case of someone having polyps in small intestine. I might have them in future so ..... If it was colon only, I would do it instantly. But I was unlucky to have polyps in duodenum also .... ... View more

And if I go to like get rid of throath pain .. I need to go to few surgeries, which I wouldn't make alive out of .... so it's pretty much pointless to do them.   And if in some rare case I survive them, I will get cancer 2 weeks later cause of polyps in tissue below my stomach.   If I get rid of throat pain, I will get cancer in duodenum cause I have 40 polyps there so .......   If I decide to get rid of throat pain - duodenum cancer. And if I don't - esophageal cancer   And I'm f**ked no matter which one I chose. xD ... View more

I wasn't here for some time. I needed some time alone honestly. Hm ... My throat is still hurting like hell. I'm pretty sure I will get Esophageal cancer so .... I pretty much don't care anymore honestly. My body is in phase that I feel "strange". Not like it's hurting me anything ..... I just general feel strange in my body. Only throat is killing me .... My whole body just feels strange, like super strange. I can't describe it, it just feels strange. Last time that I told doctor I feel strange in my body, he wanted to give me alcohol test. xD So I learned my lession in terms of going to doctor with sentence; I feel strange. xD I will die anyway soon, so I don't care anymore. I can just pick cause. xD Do I want throat cancer cause acit will destroy my throat, do I want colon cancer cause I have leg hernia and I maybe can't go to colonoscopy anymore, do I want heart stroke cause of too much stress. My body just feels strange in general. And I'm slowly loosing controll over my body. My body is starting to giving up on me so ...... ... View more

At the moment, I just want big bottle of Vodka, and KFC hamburger, ...... and then freakin just feel asleep and never wake up again. I can't do it anymore. -.- 😞 😞 😞 ... View more

Also, if I go to colectomy now, I'm 99% sure that I will die on table. My body is f***ed up, and that is one hard nasty surgery. -.- ... View more

Officially .... My body is slowly going to 5hit. -.- And there is nothing I can do about it. -.- My body started to feel really strange. -.-   I did operate one above leg hernia, I need to wait for sound scan for other leg hernia. My hiatal hernia started to hurt as hell. And if I operate that, I can't go to gastroscopy for the rest of my life, and I will get cancer tiny below stomach. And if I don't operate that, I will die of esophagus cancer. My blood picture is f***ed up like big one. My thrombocytes are extremely low. My kalium is also f***ed up a lot, so I have a lot of peing problem, and if we add leg hernia to that ... I'm usually on toilette about 45 minutes at least. -.- And if I got to any surgery, I wouldn't make it, my body is f***ed up hugely. I usually get throat infection also, cause of hiatal hernia acid and stuff like that .....   Life sucks. ... View more

Since most of you don't know what I'm talking about, my stomach looks like this:   https://www.mayoclinic.org/-/media/kcms/gbs/patient-consumer/images/2013/08/26/10/13/ds00099_im01191_ww5rl88thu_jpg.jpg   https://img.webmd.com/dtmcms/live/webmd/consumer_assets/site_images/article_thumbnails/reference_guide/medical_reference/375x321_hiatal_hernia_frameless.jpg   https://www.clevelandclinic.org/healthinfo/ShowImage.ashx?PIC=4036 ... View more

Well, surgent who did perform my colon hernia surgery doesn't care about my FAP. He just put plastic in my rectum hole, and I talk to him for about 3 pure minutes in 2 months. XD   Gastroenteorologyst has about same principle, I said it went fine, that I don't feel pain ... and I was out of his office after less then 2 minutes. -.-   Then 3 months later, I wanted to check release papers, and I got diagnosys "hiatal hernia" (which is hernia on stomach cover) .... They didn't tell me that day after gastroscopy, my family general doctor didn't tell me that when he saw release papers ....   .. Everything was fine in next 3 months after last gastroscopy, and then every day throath pain, every day stomach acid problems and stuff.   Now things which I can do is: 1. Go to total colectomy ... but my body won't make it. I'm 95% sure that I will die on the table. It's fu**in super hard surgery, and I won't make it, my body won't make it. My body is already beyond f**kable so I won't make it. I will die on that table. 2. Go to stomach cover surgery, which is also a hard surgery ... and never go to gastroscopy again.   I just don't have strenght anymore ... I just can't do it anymore .....   The way I see it; I will die in two ways: 1. acid will eat my mouth fully. 2. I will get colon cancer.   I'm in the endgame now. -.-   I just don't want to die on that table, I just can't do it, and I don't want to. -.- 😞 ... View more

And yeah, I tried medicine for having lower acid level in stomach ... I have diarrhea after just 2 days, and I have diarrhea with any medicine which I tried. -.- And I don't have money to buy alternative natural medicine like some tea's and stuff like that , some grass and plants medication .... -.-   I can't lower my stomach with body exercise, since I'm from surgery. -.- I can't go to stomach surgery 'cause there is no point of having it. -.-   I'm 95% sure that I have 2nd hernia in rectum, so I would need to go to that surgery again, and I can't do it too soon, cause I'm just from 1st rectum hernia surgery, and I need to rest for next 2 months. -.-   And I need to pray, not to get cancer in next few months. -.-   Life s..... ... View more

I don't have cancer, I never had it - I was on my way to get it, .... but I have hole in a stomach since last gastoscopy ... And now stomach acid is destroying and eating my throat. Cause my stomach kinda protection is not closing my stomach , so acid is destroying my throat. -.- I have throat pain most time in week ... doctor said that if I spit blood few times, it okey .... but I have spit a lot of blood in last past days ..... I can't go to surgery for that shit, since it's poinless, couse I would need to go on gastroscopy like 2 months after surgery, so there is no point of having it. -.- Yeah, I was in "lucky" 13% of FAP people , who have polyps both in tissue behind stomach, and in colon ... So I have to take both colonoscopy and gastoscopy. -.- I have big hole in stomach, where the top cover was supposed to close stomach, but now that cover was destroyed during last gastroscopy, and acid is slowly eating tissue in my mouth and throat. -.-   F**k you FAP. ... View more