12 months ago today at the age of 45 I had surgery at Monash Moorabbin to remove a 15cm ovarian tumor. In addition, I had a full hysterectomy, my appendix, lymph nodes and some of the lining of my abdomen was also removed. 1 week after surgery, I received the news that the tumor and my left fallopian tube were borderline malignant but the rest of me that was removed was benign meaning I would not be required to have further treatment. It has been a really big 12 months recovery for me. Getting through the initial diagnosis and surgery – I had my positive and be strong hat on. However, over the last 12 months – I have struggled with the loss and the shame of how my body now looks and works – and then guilt for feeling that way when I am really one of the lucky ones! I have a large 25cm vertical cut from my pubic bone and up past my belly button towards my sternum. I have never had children and this loss has affected me in strange ways. I have an amazing husband and incredible family – but I have found it hard to really find anyone who understands the way I feel. For those around me – my scars are hidden and they think I am fine and fully recovered – but for me I don’t really feel that way. I would love to online chat with anyone who has been through similar circumstances… Thanks, Donna ... View more