Hello Theresa, My own fear of death is a real bugger -- made less by a feeling of complete disbelief... this can't be happening to me! Dying is a very personal thing but I know that other people are both curious and sympathetic. Rather than upset people who really do care, I post to my blog; people can choose to read it, or not. Mostly, though, writing it all down makes me feel a lot better. Thanks for sharing, thanks for sharing the song. … Nick ... View more

Hello Rick, I've had issues with various specialists -- communication issues, never with the recommended or actual treatment. But it's not a good time to accept anything other than "the best". An essential part of my writing "self-therapy" is so that I can then forget it! I like to forget the past so that I can concentrate on worrying about the latest issues 🙂 Good luck with your future treatment. ... Nick ... View more

Hello Colin, I'm 66 and had just the one set of intensive treatment (a few months of surgery, radiation, chemo). I consider myself to be lucky -- relatively speaking. I hope you can get a period of stability. … Nick ... View more

Hello Katekat, I write for my own self-therapy. If other people appreciate the blog, that's a bonus. Thanks for your comment. … Nick ... View more

My own thoughts -- bearing in mind that I am normally not particularly sociable !   Don't change your normal family relationship with the cancer patient.  Family are family. My wife is supportive -- as she always has been. Yes, she is now even more willing to listen to my "requests" but she still lets me know (as much as ever) what are her own thoughts.   Our children (adults) are sympathetic -- but carry on living their own lives. They still turn up for Sunday dinners but there is no special, Must visit dad before he carks it. When I'm sick they make allowances, when I'm well it's life as usual. I don't need them dancing attendance, I'm pleased and proud just to know how well they are doing -- in their own lives.   When you're there -- it's great. But I still need time to myself, time to just do whatever it is that I want or need to do by myself. Even if it's just wallowing in my own misery. Most of the time it's enough to just know that, if I need you, I can call and you will be there. Soon enough.   I've never had a bucket list -- and it's too late now. Nor do I have a need for good memories. If there's something that the cancer patient desperately wants to do -- okay, give it a go. But we're dying, some things are less important than they were. Company and comfort may be enough.   I will have no need for good memories -- not when I'm dead. What I need is... a pleasant time, within my capabilities... right now. While I am still alive.   But *you* need good memories. My wife and I went on a walking holiday, I didn't enjoy it all that much. But I did -- really -- enjoy that my wife enjoyed it ! Try to do things that you both (or all) enjoy. I may be a miserable old sod but it cheers me up to know that you are doing something -- with me -- that you particularly enjoy.   There's no need for friends to "make a special effort" just because I'm dying. I have some friends that I would see every two or three months. With terminal cancer, I still see them every two or three months. Or less because I do -- now -- have trouble wanting to be sociable 😞 The only changes to these friendships has been that they have done the driving. When I was "banned" from driving, these friends would pick me up and drive me home again.   Other friends, I would see... hardly ever. We had drifted apart. Different interests, different views of what "catching up" means. Suddenly -- there they are. Every month. Sure, it's great to chat with them. But I can't help thinking, Where were they when I was "healthy"? Are they still "friends"?   Be honest with your friendships. Don't be scared away from "regular" friends who now are dying. Don't feel that you "have to" visit someone now that they are at death's door. Maintain friendships.   But what should I say to the dying person ?! Asking, How are you? may lead to more information than you really want ! Ask anyway... A person does not need to be dying of cancer to over-share on their latest problems. Deal with it as you normally would. With the extra thought that, yes, this person really is dying, no exaggeration.   Give the cancer patient an opportunity to tell you how they feel. When they stop telling you -- talk about something else.   Years ago I asked a friend if he would write a series of articles for a newsletter. He replied, rather snappily, I'm dying of cancer, I don't have time or interest for writing. I knew he was dying but I had wondered if writing articles would take his mind off dying. I accepted his response, we went on to talk of other things.   When the cancer patient is dead -- friends and family will continue to live. Remember that. "His wife has encouraged us to take time off to spend with him". This will help the wife to cope with her husband's dying. It will help your husband to deal with his brother's dying. The dying man will recognise this, he will appreciate this. He may also want time alone, to learn to accept his own situation. I doubt if he will want you to "sacrifice" yourselves to the point where you are annoyed by what you are doing.   Balance the needs of the dying man with the needs of those who will live on. My wife continues to work, she needs the "escape" of continuing her normal life. When I need her help, she takes time off work. And I have the time to do things by myself. With the knowledge that my wife is available -- if I need her.   When I finally die, I know that my wife -- and friends, and family -- will be a little closer to "picking up the pieces" of a future life. For myself, I'll be dead, it won't worry me.     So in summary: be friends, be family, be normal. Be there if needed -- if that is normal. Offer support, outings, holidays, whatever but don't insist. Offer what you will *both* enjoy. Don't be surprised if illness and pain turn a nice bloke into a moody bugger... but let me know... in the nicest possible way 🙂   All of the above is my own point of view. Everyone is different ! It's your family, it's your relationships. One person is dying, everyone else is (hopefully) living on. Do what seems right -- and comfortable -- for you. ... View more