You know what..?.I thought I was the only one feeling this too! Its like a liberating feeling...a feeling of peaceful calm and or acknowledgement. We often wonder what we will go from...and when etc..but like you..I have a few moments..in my silent moments. But its like seeing things so differently....more with clarification and acceptance. Yes live love laugh..hug n smile...because whether sick or not..we truly arent guaranteed a tomorrow....my nephew turned to me and said (before I was diagnosed again) " you know..we pass the date and month of our death every year..but we dont know which one our lives will end on one day"......and hes right!....So my friend you are not alone....I feel the same...my diagnosis of stage 4 metastasis to supraclavicular lymph nodes left side on my neck from a cervical cancer primary is rare as hens teeth....but I treat it like a chronic disease..which it is. I feel great..atm ..no other metastasis just finished radiation (palliative )..burnt to a crisp..finding it hard to swallow food atm but am ok. I keep going..and yes you take more in everyday...nothing for granted and aware of my loved ones and surroundings..etc. one day at a time...and so much to enjoy. Yes its my kids I will miss....and the grief part...rears its head...I know most likely this disease will be my end..but not yet buddy...and I have come closer too my faith in God..that Im not afraid to go one day. Peace and happiness to you..and to all who are coping as they wish. ❤
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Hi hoping to find..people with cervical cancer metastasis to left (or right) supraclavicular lymph nodes stage 4. Had been in remission for 3 years..just diagnosed recently with this rare occurrence 0.01%...from a stage 1b primary..feel devastated as am asymptomatic and feel great. All I can hope for is no metastasis else where later..as my pet ct scan shows all clear...my oncologist says this is so unfortunate and should not have happened...feel upset as was misdiagnosed as multinodular goiter a year ago! I had to beg for a biopsy! Patient follow up on cancer ex patients in remission etc is appalling..I am so anxious and frustrated that I cannot find anyone with this occurence of cancer metastasis and how rare it is. Regards Poppy
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Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.