hi everyone i am new to this group. I just needed to vent i dont have anyone i can talk to and just looking for some friendly advice.  my dad is 76 yrs old and he was dx with squamos carcinoma of the skin unfortanly its on his face. it has been 3 yrs now he has  had chemo and 3 surgerys to remove the cancer. in the mean time of the treatment he was not feeling well so went to er for tummy pains they did a cat scan and found he had a tumor in his colon they removed it and it was colon cancer stage 3.  they stopped his treatment for the skin cancer becuase the colon was more important so he was getting chemo for a few months. in the mean time his skin cancer was getting worse they finally started him on immnotherapy but he lost his rt eye and he now has a hole in his cheek from the tumor eating away the healty tissue. we spoke to the doctos and surgeon and they all agreed there is nothing else they can do he wont survive another surgery and his ear is now erroding he is in constant pain.. his face is totally destroyed he lost so much weight they put him a feeding tube the doctors are giving him 6 months to a year.there is more but i think i would crash the system ...lol  i feel soooo helpless i want to make it better but i cant he is in rehab now but that wont last so option one is to bring him home with hospice care but i would have to move in and take care of him but i am not a nurse so the option is to hire a live in nurse to watch over him and help him with feedings and oxygen and pills etc or option 2 is to put him in a full time facility. my dad goes from wanting to die to wanting to fight. what do i do ???? any advice would be great and another thing is i feel quilety when i go out to the store or have dinner with family or friends when  he is in there sufferning how can i have a good life and he doesnt i should suffer like him and not do anything but work and go see him please help !!!! maybe i need to go to a counsler dont know    thanks for listening  ... View more