My sister has always been the life of the party ..very friendly..healthy..now at 53 her body is riddled with lymphoma. On top of that she lives with our 85 year old mother who is wheelchair bound and takes care of her full time. My sister has a large strong church that is very involved in helping them both. My sister has 2 types of cancer and already went through some of the strongest chemo available. At the end of the treatment the cancer had shrunk enough that she wasn't in danger. But now just 6 months later she has cancer in 8 different areas...some registering as high as a 10 on the pt scan. I live 150 miles away from my mom and sister. I was originally diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia but now am diagnosed with the worst form of bipolar. Im 57..almost died of alcohol 10 years ago...(haven't drank since)...had hepatitis c for 34 years...took the medication and am now cured...lived a risky reckless life...was a heroin addict 35 years ago...haven't done any drugs since...yet Im in fine health. But am bedridden and disabled from my mental state. My fathers dead and my sister and I never had children and neither one of us are married. I can read the writing on the wall...my mom and sister will be gone and I will have no family. I feel terrible that my mind is so messed up I can't even make the trip to see my mom and sister. But frankly my condition is not much of a help to their problems. We speak on the phone almost every day via video calls so I feel close to them. We are all Christians and believe in heaven but the whole situation is so sad. I've been trying to take less psyche meds but I don't want to be an emotional wreck for whatever lies ahead....  ... View more