Thanks for the response, and thank you for your advice. I’m not so much into death movies or end of world. I’m a US Army Vet and knowing the things I know and have learned I know this world is in a very fine tipping point. I’m a very strong willed person and I make the best out of everything. I love humor and always making fun of my conditions and being disabled. But, I’m every bit of thankful to benefit on the Plus side of things and how much worse things could be for me. I’m a strong believer in God and have never blamed him for anything that happened to me or is happening. My mom and wife have other thoughts on why he would do this to people, but, I just say he does it for his reason and he knows my life and what needs to be done. It’s the learning and testing phase and I tell them God has me at his best interest, even if I suffer someone may learn something to further help others. The only thing in life that scares me is the future of my kids. They have my heart and are my everything in life. Me to suffer is fine, but to watch my kids watch me suffer kills my soul. It kills me to not be able to do the physical dad things or always having to go thru surgeries. A 3 year old girl doesn’t understand but only seems like I’m just not interested in roughing around with her or my 8 year boy playing ball with. As soon as this kidney surgery is over I have to have second R shoulder surgery. A total open surgery to fix a rotator cuff and ACL and clean the bursitis our. The first surgery almost killed me because I got 7 PE’s 9 days after and was critical shape and the crash cart was brought in 2x the first night I was in. But, the PE’s are scary esp now they have to work on the Kidney which can easily bleed. I’m not on blood thinners but always anticipating other PE’s after surgery. But I’ve had 3 surgeries since the PE’s and came out on top. As far as Google, I only research reputable sites. I always read about treatments and outcomes and in and outs of everything. My dr.s are always impressed I know everything about what’s going on. Sometimes they tell me to just let them be the dr. And worry and me not to. It’s easier said than done when it’s your body and family that’s going through this change. I’m not familiar with diet or what to or not to eat. don’t drink alcohol, never smoked or have done drugs besides some weed when I was 17 and 18 so 24 years ago. I don’t eat fast food or greasy food. I’m 20# overweight which I argue with the dr.s calling me obese. Since I’m 6’3 and 227#. But either way. Thank you for your advice and it’s encouraging to see how others adapt to life after these diagnoses. It helps keep my chin up. Others post on here I read are heartbreakingly sad. And all I can say is know that there is something better in the end that’s going be revealed. Just don’t succumb to the Evil in this world that wants to take you down. ... View more

its in about 2 1/2 weeks. There's no signs of it in any other organs around that kidney. I know it's robotically going to performed. It's just a little scary going thru. It's seems to never end for me. When I was 26 I broke my back and had a L5-S1 fusion. Then 2016 fell 17’ off a roof head first shattering my neck, broke shoulder, elbow, and put a nail all the way thru my hand/wrist. I have an anterior and posterior fusion from C7-C3. Screws and anchors in my shoulder. 2 wrist/hand surgeries fixing the severed ulnar nerve and Elbow surgery. I was on books to get 2nd shoulder surgery but the Kidney trumps that.    I was more curious on if and how other people dealt with this and recovery or re occurring cancer. He said that it's aggressive but it's small which is in my favor and not spread.    I have 4 kids and a 3 year daughter that I want to see get married and kids graduate schools.    Thanks for the response.  ... View more