and I give him affection, hugs, kissing, hand holding as a sign of support but generally he just tells me I'm annoying and to go away. It sounds all very mean when I type it but I know he loves me he's just not a very affectionate persons who wants hugs and kisses, which is ok but thats how I grew up and learned to give support by.  ... View more

Thankyou for your reply. The flood gates are still tightly shut and don't look like they will ever open. Whats frustrating is he will talk to my family and friends about how he's doing and coping, how his Mum is doing but when I ask him he turns mute. I don't understand why, does he not trust me? I've spoken to him and questioned him why but he never answers. It's just strange, confusing and again frustrating.    He refuses to see any sort of councillor, or support group. He wants to try and fight this on his own, and he can but it's not an easy thing to do and he needs professional advice. I keep giving him advice for example trying to meditate to reduce his stress. In the moment he seems interested but then he says "no, thats stupid, it won't help me", before he's even given It a chance.    I guess its hard when I'm trying so hard to help him and he's not responding to it because I don't know he's scared for me. Makes me more scared not knowing what's going on and how he really feels.  ... View more