My situation is a little different, my husband of 39 yrs was diagnosed with stage 3 pharyngeal cancer went through 7 weeks of radiation and chemo, finished treatment and has a voice again,( which he completely lost). He's able to taste food, and best of all has not smoked since the day before his surgery in October 2016. He seems to be better right, however the chemo left him with kidney damage. His blood pressure with a couple meds are still running high. His hands shake terrible and he' an artist by trade. Now they want to start treatment for diabetes, which he's refusing. He is 66yrs old and up till this he never had to take so much as an aspirin. With all this, he wanted to stop chemo and I continued to tell him he needed to continue. Now the anger directed at me and shutting me down while he talks to other women and makes me feel so insecure, while he tells me terrible things about our life and how he does'nt want to do things with me and how much anger and dislike for me he has. He says he's not the man he was before this and I made him do this. One day he is nasty and mean and the next day he's apoligizing and tells me he loves me, it's like nothing ever happened. I told his radiation doctor and his gp and they told him he needs to be nicer, what a joke! I want to walk away and I'm so unsure if this is a result of the meds or if he needs help (which is what I suggested) and told he's not seeing any more doctors, or if medically theres something else going on. I'm tired of crying, I really don't want to leave him, I can't continue like this. Has anyone else been here, am I missing something?
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