Hi Yas-    One thing that took me 8 months to come to grips with was the realization that both the cancer and the treatment...pretty much eradicated the person I used to be.  The person I was and too many of the people who associated with him...now had different priorities and outlooks.    Again, this realization is all too recent but what brought this epiphany to my mind is the fact that I sought new groups and new environments.  You see, i found that by being a stranger had the advantage of making friends who simply accepted me, my "new look" and "new interests and priorities" as well as limitations.     Seek out new venues and you very likely find new strengths as well as acceptance...and personal usefulness.  You will be amazed how your experience can make a positive difference in other people's lives.    Cheers, Joe     ... View more