I so get that , never felt so alone , so angry so scared so tired, watching the clock tick round , i know i should sleep but ...............  theres no where to turn no means to solve the problems around the big problem  ... View more

I'm glad you're feeling a little more hopeful about the future, Picara. A couple of us have started our chemo now and while it all feels like a surreal blur in some ways, I'm astonished at how quickly I've adapted to a new normal. Just having a path and starting on it has helped my peace of mind enormously. Ironically, I wouldn't have started treatment yet had I not become seriously ill and been hospitalised two weeks ago. ... View more