Honestly, I feel like I've been hit by a train, it's like a nightmare I just can't seem to wake up from. My mum's been sick for years, she's suffered from debilitating OCD and anxiety disorder since 2003, anaemia for the past 10 years and for the last 2 years or so she's had severe fatigue, bleeding, abdominal cramping/pain, a substantial loss of hair and dizziness/faintness etc.   We plead with her to go to the doctors 2 years ago when she first noticed signs of blood in her stool, but due to her tiredness and OCD/anxiety she kept delaying going to get checked until recently. She had put all her symptoms down to her anaemia and OCD/anxiety all that time, but now we know she is at an advanced stage in colorectal cancer.   It's breaks my heart knowing she's been suffering with cancer all these years and we had no clue. The doctors have told her there's not much they can do at this point (it has spread to her liver and lymph nodes) and that she would have a few months if she did nothing or a year or so if she decided to go through Chemotherapy. They've given her a really low survival rate percentage.   On top of that, now with Covid-19 going around, we can't even get supplies like toilet paper (she uses a lot due to her OCD and going to the bathroom several times per hour due to her cancer) - she has documents from her doctor but stores say there's nothing they can do. The doctors are telling us to try to make her comfortable or make the last of her months enjoyable - but we can't even take her to the beach (her favourite place) or on a bit of a holiday due to the current Covid-19 situation.   I was also supposed to have my wedding on the 17th of April but due to Covid-19 and her cancer (I don't want her to catch anything) I've had to postpone till late May - I'm praying that this whole  Covid-19 situation eases so that I can have my wedding because I need my mum on my wedding day and honestly she is the one who is most excited for my wedding (it's something really special to her, her eldest daughter getting married). I don't know how to feel (my emotions range from anger to despair to intense sadness) and I don't know what I can do to make her life better right now.   I have an 11 year old sister who I worry for, I don't know how she would go through life without my mum. My father is also badly injured (due to a workplace injury) so there's quite a lot on my plate (I also work and study full-time).  I have two brothers (21 and 23 years old) and they seem to also be going through a range of emotions. My siblings and I have been trying to pull together to help my parents, especially my mum and it is really overwhelming (I ended up in hospital due to stress overload and not eating).   Honestly, I just don't know what to do or how to cope.  ... View more