Mandz65    When you say there is no cure,  that is not necessarily true.  My brothers neighbor was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer 4 years ago.   He is alive and perfectly healthy today with no evidence of disease.  They wont say he is cured,  but he is living life just as he was before he got diagnosed.  Yes he went through hell with surgery,  chemo, and radiation,  but right at this time his scans show all clear.  Perhaps he is just experiencing a long remission, only time will tell.    But there are other people who have survived pancreatic cancer and still test negative several years later.   One thing for sure though, the later you discover it,  the more extreme treatment you will need, and the less chance of success.  No matter what the cause of  your symptoms, you should get them investigated at the earliest possible date.    ... View more

It must be wonderful to have someone love you so much and stick by you through thick and thin.   I've had a few wives.  Can't say I've ever had anyone like that.   One son to first marriage.  I raised him.  Always thought of him as the most important person in the world to me.  Few years ago, he started suffering from what I believe is a mental illness and distancing from everybody.  It became harder and harder to stay in contact and have his company.  All the effort was on my side.  After I got cancer,  he felt guilty I think and made an effort for a while, but then dropped off and went silent and stopped answering my txts and phone calls.   I ended up having an argument with him about how he was ignoring me, right in the middle of my battle with cancer, and also how he was ignoring everybody else in family.  He blew up and told me to piss off and he wanted nothing else to do with me.   He didn't speak to me for months, and I had given up trying to contact him.  The rest of the family were pestering me to go see him.   They said just roll up at his door.  I had recovered from my treatment a fair bit by then.  So about a week before xmas I went to his house with a xmas present.  I didn't even get to the front door and I heard him yell out "piss off or I will call the police"   I stood there shocked for a min, then turned around and left.    On the way home, I got a call from the police.  They said that he doesn't want any contact with me, and that he can go to the magistrates court and put a restraining order on me if I try to contact him again.   So I have lost my son, for no reason I can think of.    There have been many times in my life when I have been abandoned,  and turned against by someone I love, and have thought they loved me.   But this has been the worst.   Not one day, not one hour goes by when i don't think about it.  It's given me more pain then my cancer and my treatment.   I understand how you feel.  But at least you have the knowledge that your husband did not leave you intentionally.  He was taken, against his will.  You have memories of a loving husband....and they are real.   My memories are, or at least how I feel now about it,  are of people who I thought loved me, but did not.   I feel I have never had what your husband had.  Someone who really loved me, and valued me.   In that light, your husband was very lucky.   I hope you find peace and happiness again.  xo ... View more

Hello Tree and cemo.  I'm still learning how to to this.  Had a great day today and will be working remotely from home tomorrow.  Still trying to train some young recent Grads on how things really work.  Ha.  Slept last night well.  Got in about 4 good hours and napped probably 2 hrs today.  Not bad.  Just took one magic pill, and that's good.  Try not to be foolish with them.  I've had a wonderful time.  Life's been good to me. I think of those folks that haven't and are hurting and alone and I hope all your prayers are for them.  I'm lucky.  I have my wife who hovers over me like a .....(I was going to say buzzard and rethought it) 😎,,,hovers over me like a majestic eagle...Yep.....that's better, and I would be a scared, lost soul  in a dark room searching for the door. Bless you all ... View more