Hi Lindy-Lou,   I can't imagine the worry you have , with children to look after as well (I've lucked out on things like a family due to depression, with the exception of a lovely girl German Shepherd doggo called Alita). The thing to remember here is that you have done NOTHING wrong to cause this. As a tradie working on a building site said to me when I blew my stack at him for accidentally cutting through our main water pipe, "These things happen".  I have CLL, and the irony is that it was not caused by my past smoking / drinking / drug use; lung cancer was my main worry, but then fate decided to give me a completely non-related cancer.  Damn you fate !   My stress will probably be the death of me, but I have no choice in the matter; things will be hard, but remember to take care of yourself, and find what is stressing you (besides this cancer) and start making changes to GET RID of that stress where you can, for your immune system and your life.  Keep strong for your kids as long as you can  🙂   ... View more