Hi Bianca, I feel like I'm in a pretty similar situation to you although I'm a bit older.  I am 45 years old, with Stage 3 bowel cancer which I was diagnosed with in March.  I barely drink, have a very healthy diet, practice yoga, love swimming, walking and have rarely taken any medication in my life.  I would also say I have a bit of a phobia of ingesting anything toxic.   I am just about to start my fourth round of chemo, I have to complete eight in total.  The day before my first treatment  I was in full fight or flight mode, so fearful of having to 'poison' myself with these drugs.  The first couple of weeks were awful,  I made it through the first infusion with my sanity intact but I felt very anxious about having to put the tablets into my mouth.  I just did not want to do it and nobody could force me.  However, I had to face the reality that I was actually really sick even though I felt and looked fine.  My husband always likes to set me on the straight and narrow, he reminded me that it might feel like poison but it's most likely going to prolong my life and I want to grow old.  The way I get through my anxiety is to remind myself of the big picture.  I'm doing this for myself and my family, I need to be strong.  You might create a little mantra for yourself or thank your body for being so strong to get you through all of this trauma so far. My nurse also said to me, the human body wants to survive and thrive. Meditation, yoga, and long walks have eased my anxiety greatly.  As well as making regular visits to the hospital psychologist who is absolutely wonderful.  Be really kind to yourself  🙂  ... View more