I lost my mother on february 28 2021. We weren't prepared for it. We were not given any timeline. She was diagnosed in November 2020. Mum only had 2 treatments of chemo. On the 11 November not only did we find out she had a massive tumour in her lungs but she also had severe emphysema. It was traumatic for me as she wasn't well enough to travel to the nearest hospital to have any further treatment, so she was put under a "palliative care" category and my sister and I travelled three hours every weekend to care for her. I miss her terribly and now we have to care for our father who has short term memory loss and also I have two intellectually disabled relatives to care for as well. I too cry on my own. My husband and my children have no understanding of the pain and sadness that is grief. I never share my sadness with anyone I always wait to cry on my own. I spoke to the cancer council advisor for the first time yesterday and I was so relieved that someone was willing to listen to me. I spoke to my mum every day and when she got sick I spoke to her at least three times a day. Every day I wake with the same anxiety that something is missing in my life and it's my mum. I also do not cry in front of my dad as I feel i have to be strong for him.  There are days when I cry all day and then there are days I get busy and it hits me at the end of the day and I realise she really is gone. So from what i am experiencing and what i have read of your story I thinik this is normal and its very hard life to adjust too. ... View more