So much of your story hits home for me and it was what I needed t o find! I recently lost my father very quickly as well. Diagnosed 6th May 2021 passed  15th June 2021.   I cried when we knew our time was running short, when he passed and the funeral. I was able to kind of turn off when we got home and I had to help sort meds out. And like you said near the end switch off and do what needs to be done. because well im sorry but our parents had to do those things for us when we wouldn't.    I'm at loss with 'not grieving right'. I feel more numb then typical grief. Spend most of the day in bed sleeping. I think all our reactions are right for us.  I think I'm still in the shock stage due to how quick and horrible was.   I hope you are doing better (what ever that may be) x ... View more