Hi all, It is amazing reading about the strength and resilience of so many people, it's awful how many are affected by this terrible disease. This year both my mother and father, who are divorced, have been diagnosed with stage 4 bone cancer. Mum had breast cancer and had her breasts removed about 10 years ago and had radiation. The cancer returned 5 years later and she had chemo. It has now spread through her body and is in her bones. She has had to halt chemo as it is making her too sick, so all we can do is just wait. She is having radiation for the pain. Dad had prostate cancer 2 years ago, had the operation but it is now quite aggressively spreading through his body and is also in his bones. Ive moved my dad in to live with me and he started chemo last week.  The reality of what is ahead has sort of hit me this week, as I have seen my dad go from an energetic 70 year old to a man in agony who can barely get out of bed. When I speak to mum, she is starting to get sicker, she has started vomiting for no reason and is just so tired all the time. I dont want either of them to know that I am not handling things, ive woken up every morning for the last week having panic attacks and crying and can't seem to snap out of it. I've missed work and all I want to do is make time stop.  I was told that as treatment continues you become conditioned to it all, and it becomes a new normal. Does it get easier? I can't afford to fall apart. I'm a single mum, I need my job and I need to stay strong for dad especially. How can I come to terms with the prospect of losing them both? I am just feeling sad all the time and scared of the future.  ... View more