Karen    It brakes my heart reading your story. My biggest fear as a father and now grandfather is having to go through what you are.  I'm very thankful that I have lymphoma and not someone I love.  I believe cancer is harder on the people who care about the person with it. My only advise for you is to find someone you feel comfortable with and let out your feelings.  Sadly this is something I struggle with.  So I know its easier said than done.  I'm very involved in my church. There are times where I wish someone would push me to open up and express how im really feeling.  I leave church mad because I feel they don't care.  But I know deep down inside they love me and know I'm not very open about my personal problems.  But I'm the first person to offer to help... Please find that someone. Because you need to be a 100 % for your son. Im sure seeing you this way is not making him happy.. I wish I had a magic pill to offer you 🌹 ... View more