Hi, I had a very bad childhood too, I was sexually abused by my father, my parents abused all of us kids in every way, violence, threats, emotionallly, my father broke me nose on my 18th birthday, and since I left home I've been happiest, I've come to terms with what happened to me, locked it in a box in my head and filed it under never to be opened, its been a while since the box was opened, and it does come up, but uts locked again quickly. I hit  27 and its been constant problems with my body. I started with endometriosis,  then after my hysterectomy I hurt my back, leading to emergency spinal surgery one of many, and numerous other things, and now cancer. But as you said, you need to see your Dr, get the test results and then you can worry, no use worrying until you know if there's anything to worry about, that will just make you ill anyway. Stress comes in many forms, and it's your body that suffers, so please get the tests, I've just had a MRI today, but I'm glad I know what is wrong, as there's help and support, whatever your problem. Please feel free to message me if you like,  I dont mind you and I talking in private messages, but DO NOT TRUST gamerjaved, he's messaged me and said he's a spiritual healer, he's a con man and will take every penny he can and he'll just sat back and laugh. I'm 54 I do not mind talking to you, you're still a baby, you have years in front of you, get diagnosed and you'll fly, you can face anything, more than you realise, especially after traumatic childhood,  I know I've been there, I have 2 brothers and a sister, both brothers are alcoholics, my younger brother threw himself under a train when he was 40 in 2011 , due to his mental health as he grew up, I don't have a great deal of contact with my elder brother, but my sister and I have a great relationship and she's part of my support going into this cancer treatment. I just wanted to let you know that you're stronger than you know, you will be ok, but the sooner your diagnosis, whatever it is, the sooner your treatment will start. If you want to message me privately I don't mind, I can support you with words alone, but that means the world to some people. Take care, see your GP xx ... View more

Thanks for the reply, qs for the gp, I can't get an appt, I spokebto a dr last week, he didn't even know I'd been diagnosed, to get a telephone appt with the gp is a devils own job, I'm currently chasing up the colorectomy nurse who rang me, to see if she can help. My little island is getting smaller, and I'm so stressed, I don't know what to do, I cannot get a definitive answer,  although on report it says its malignant,  yet people say wait for the biopsies to get back, I'm lost and its not helping me when I have nowhere to turn.   Thank you for replying, I will try to get past the receptionist at my go surgery, which is awful, I said last week I may have cancer, and ahe said ring back after 12pm, it was 11.57am, its ridiculous, my husband couldn't see a gp last year, they said his stomach pain was stress, 4 months later, he was rushed to hospital and nearly died, his gallbladder was gangreneous,  he was hours away from death.    Thanks take care  ... View more

Hi, orry to hear your troubles, have you had tests for endometriosis? I had many of the same problems and was diagnosed,eventually, with it, I elected to have a hysterectomy when I was 30, never regretted it,please see your Dr, they can help put your mind at rest one way or the other, please don't put ut off, you'll be glad when you actually know what the problem is. I hope you get it sorted  Rosie ... View more