Hi Michael,  there is a lot to unpack - I took 2 months off work then eased back into it. I honestly think I was on auto pilot the first few months - almost zombi like - then Sydney Covid lock down hit I was great full I didn’t have to deal with anyone for 16 weeks ….. The time off looking back now helped me get use to being at home alone. Learning many new skills how to clean the pool, do the lawns the house maintenance outside as well as inside.  ... View more

Hi Jamie,  I guess people are trying to be kind by avoiding or upsetting us, yet this does the opposite - we want to talk about our partners. I know I was out at dinner I was listening to conversations but honestly can not tell you what anyone said - I felt myself looking around and then realised I was there alone my husband was not at the bar or bath room. Then I drive home alone and cry most of the way.  ... View more

Hi Bob, Jamie and Michael, thank you for sharing your feelings here and I understand your pain. It’s hard to find people who get it …. Unfortunately this cruel disease makes me apart of the group. This is the first group I have reached out too , and reading your posts tonight made me feel like I know you all, so thanks for that.  It’s been 16 months now that my wonderful husband of 25 years left this world. I lived in the moment and never thought about  myself or what my life would look like without him in it. I look at things differently now. Going back to work and structure helped, and I get the loneliness - it’s a couples world and everyone in my world is still a couple. So I  pulled away from a lot so I’m not the odd one out. I’m just not ready , to socialise or up for small talk. I’m still struggle to sleep, and like you all so many wonderful memories bring so many triggers.  I  started a gratitude diary - every day I write down 3 things I’m grateful for - sounds easy - yeah it’s not. Give it a go ……. Thank goodness for our pets they give purpose and meaning to the day. Thanks Ammanda.  ... View more