Hey all, Well tomorrow (or should i say today!!!) is my last chemo. I still have radiation to go in the new year though. But as things come closer to the end i get more and more nervous and fall apart. I never imagined that my life would be like this. I had it all planned i was the organised one with everything mapped out. I have HL and have gone through 4 rounds of chemo. As much as i want treatment to finish, at the same time i dont. When you are having treatment you know the cancer cant grow or come back. What do i do once it all ends?? How do you start again??? How do i start living again??? For the past 5 months cancer has been my life, its in my thoughts, my dreams, my actions, my conversations. It seems i have been existing while the world kept living.... I dont want it to continue to consume my life, but i dont want to just pretend it never happened. I am already so scared about relapse and i havent even finished treatment. Any advice???? ... View more