Hi Trinaelise, Whilst everyone’s emotions and how they cope with them are different, I will share with you my story, along with how I’ve watch my siblings deal with things in a similar way. My own mother was diagnosed with breast cancer 20+yrs ago. She went through Chemo and Radiation, after about a year or two she was given the all clear. My mother lived in Ireland and I lived in Australia. During her time of treatment, we made Some goals one being that once she was better she would come out to Australia to visit. Towards the end of treatment my now fiancé became pregnant, we set a date for a wedding and with a new Bub on the way my mother and I had planned that she would come out for the wedding and meet her new Grandson. About 6 months after been given the all clear she was told that the cancer had come back and that it had aggressively spread throughout her body and she had about 2-4 weeks left. I remember her call to me to this day, telling me that she didn’t think that she will be able to make it to Australia. Within 2-3 weeks after that call she had passed away. How did I cope with it? I’ve always been a very pragmatic type of person and accept the reality of life and Death, even though my mother was young (50yrs), I accepted that it was her time. I cried for a couple of days and then pulled myself together and said, it’s ok to be sad, but for my own health I need to accept that my mother will no longer be around and that doesn’t mean that I can’t continue to remember her in a positive light. This approach has helped me deal with the loss of a mother who was taken at a reasonably young age and for me who lost a mother when I was reasonably young (around 24yrs). My two sisters who live in Ireland and to this day have never been able to move on from losing their mother, to this day they still have issues as a result of losing their mother, it has impacted them emotionally and mentally which has not worked in their favour on allowing them to move forward with their own life. I now unfortunately find myself on the other side of the fence, where I was diagnosed in June of this year with Renal Cell Cancer that has spread to my Liver, Lung and Brain. In October I had brain surgery to remove the tumour and am currently going through radiotherapy on the brain to remove any remains of cancerous cells from the brain that the surgeon may or may not have left behind. I’m also on immunotherapy for the cancer everywhere else in my body. I have a very positive outlook and approach where I believe that I’ll get through this and have a 20yr and beyond plan to survive, is this realistic, I really don’t know but it’s the path that I’ve outlined for myself and plan to get there. I have two kids that are 19 and 17 who are experiencing the same journey that you and I have or are going through. I believe that it’s very important for my kids to know that the future may look bleak but it’s important that they don’t let my illness consume them. I reassure them that I’ll do everything within my power to survive the illness but should the worse case mean my life is cut short that I’d want them to live their life to the fullest and that I’ll still be around looking over them and watching their mile stones as they progress through life. One thing that got me through my mothers passing and still is, is a song by U2 called kite (I’m not a big U2 fan 🙂 ). I remember it to this day on a flight from Sydney to Ireland to see my mother before her passing and this song came on the inflight entertainment, it just resonated with me at the time. The lyrics that jumped out at me are: Who's to say where the wind will take you Who's to say what it is will break you I don't know Which way the wind will blow Who's to know when the time has come around Don't want to see you cry I know that this is not goodbye The last line is what means a lot to me “I know that this is not goodbye” I understand that it’s hard to think of the what if’s and not get upset about them, but it’s very important that you look after yourself and your wellbeing now and in the future as if you don’t it will hold you back in life, both emotionally and mentally. Enjoy the moments today with your mother and allow each and every day be precious, don’t feel like you have to fast track life moments as it’s not what your mother would want you to do, especially if it’s putting too much pressure on you and impacting your wellbeing. I hope my story gives you some perspective from both sides of the coin and is helpful to you. Take care of yourself as a priority and that will help you get through things. Wishing you well. Anthony
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