Hi Trinia I felt so strongly for you and your sadness when reading your blog. The others have given you good advice - it is so true that these feelings never go away - what you have been through is huge and it is ok for you to feel the way you do. But some days will get easier and I hope you can find some comfort in the knowledge that by contacting this site and sharing your deepest fears, feelings and worries you will always have friends here to listen, advise and support you without judgement. Take care of yourself and keep writing whenever you need to. Kind regards, Willow. xo ... View more