January 2012
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Hi
I hardly ever get on this site anymore so don't know when you wrote your msg. I am nearly three years post diagnosis and am feeling good. I used to worry all the time about a recurrence and about having Triple Negative cancer but these days I don't think about it nearly so much. I know quite a few people with breast cancer but none with TN. I will check here from time to time to see if you have sent a msg now that I know you are out there. 🙂 I hope you are doing ok now. The physcologist is a good idea - I saw one too and she really helped me to stay focused on what was important and to help me realise that I still had a lot of living to do. Good luck with your journey and if you feel the need to talk, ask questions or just vent, please write again.
Take care, kind regards, Willow xo
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December 2010
Hi everyone - wishing you all a very Merry Christmas and a Happy and Healthy New Year. Thankyou to everyone for their help, support and kindmess in 2010.
Warm regards, Willow. xoxo
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December 2010
Hi Karen
How are you today? If you read my blogs you probably think I am not the best person to give advice, but I too have had treatment for Triple Negative Breast Cancer. If you are starting Chemo on the 16th you should still have your hair for Christmas. My advice is that you don't do too much reading about this type of cancer - My oncologist has said that this type of cancer responds very well to Chemo which is a positive. Are you having radiation after your chemo? Take care and focus for now on looking after yourself and maybe setting up some strong supports. I was told by others on this site to 'be kind to yourself' - very good advice. Also ring the cancer council on 131120 as I found them so helpful and supportive while I was going through treatment- they were happy to talk as often as I needed - and they can send you a 'My Journey Kit' which is also very informative and helpful. Take care and do keep in touch with us all on this site. Kind regards, Willow. xo
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Hi everyone
Well I am home and really glad to be here. Thank you so much for all the replies, support and suggestions. I did talk to my surgeon and she was very understanding. I will make an appointment with my local Dr this week. At the moment it looks like I won't need to go back to the hospital which is great news. I am taking things very slowly and focusing on recovery. I was shocked that this visit to the hospital affected me this way and realise that I need to address my stress levels and be a bit more honest with people about how I really feel. Not telling people how I feel has become a habit (a bad one) but it was because people don't want to hear that you are having a bad day or not coping. I thought I was on top of things and handling my life well but now I have to rethink where i go from here and what I do. I am extremely grateful for this site and the people who participate on here. Best wishes to all of you, you are always in my thoughts. Kind regards, Willow xo
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December 2010
Help. Im so depressed. I wasn't ready 4 this. I feel so alone & desperate. I've had enough. Im so tired. Willow
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Hi. 4.20am. Cant sleep. Thanks 4 ur replies. It is looking like i might have 2 go back in2 surgery. I have pain & am not coping with all this. I should never have agreed 2 the operation. I was doing ok. I lie here thinking, i survivef cancer (for now) and this will probably fimish me off. A little dramatic - maybe - but the tears are coming again and i feel so alone amd as if noone understands. This was supposed 2 b an easy procedure. I feel as if i am jinxed, as if maybe this is my time. I need 2 stop now. Im being silly . There are so many people out there so much worse off than me. I will try and sleep . I just want 2 go home & cuddle my cats. You would think that after all the cancer treatment this would be easy - but i am being a real sook at times and shaking when they come near me to treat me. My pain thresh hold is nil. Thanks again 4 letting me talk. It calms me down cause i feel like im chatting (whinging) 2 friends who do understand & dont judge me as being a little crazy ( even if i am) I hope u all slept well and have a good day whereever u are. All the best and thankyou again for listening, Willow xo
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December 2010
Hi sending this from my iphone - harder than on the computer. In hospital after non cancer related surgery & having a few problems-is it ever going 2 turn out ok 4 me. Just reaching out 2 you guys cause the tears are flowing & im feeling a little scared & sad. My love 2 u all, Willow xo
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November 2010
Hi Samex
I think it is a lovely idea to have a happy place to go to when things become too much. The beach has always had a calming affect on me. I have just recently come back from Phuket - a lovely trip and a place I feel I could live for a few months at a time. Very relaxing and so many smiling happy people who are polite and helpful. My son and I have lots of lovely memories now which was the plan. At the moment it is my happy place as I keep remembering the fun we had and while on holiday I have noticed that the shadow of cancer is hardly ever around. It quickly creeps back into my life once I am back home (especially after the inevitable visits to the oncologist) So hang on to you new image - your new happy place - I think it is important that we all find a special place to reflect and de stress. Every little positive thing we do is a good thing.
Kind regards, Willow xo
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October 2010
Hi
Finally I have resigned ......I have moaned and stressed and worried as a lot of you will remember about what to do and agonised over making this decision for a very long time. I was treated badly by managers at my workplace and had a lot of problems but I didn't want to resign because I needed to hang on to my past - the past 'before cancer'. I thought that somehow if I could just keep doing what I had always done everything would be ok. But I have to now accept that this is not so - I have to move on - it is still hard and I am very nervous about my decision - the next few days, weeks, months will be strange, difficult but I am determined to make it work and 'Embrace my new Normal'
So to all of you who have read my blogs about my struggle to make a decision and my whingeing about work, thank you for your advice, patience and understanding. I am off to Phuket with my son next month to create some happy, fun memories for him and for me. (My daughter and I spent time away together earlier this year) When I was first diagnosed and they sent me the 'My Journey Journal' I thought it was a bit strange referring to getting cancer as a journey - but that is exactly what it is - a journey full of highs and lows and ups and downs and we just have to keep going, stay strong and embrace life - just deal with a day at a time. My love to you all, Willow xo
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