Honestly, today was terrifying. Not that we haven't been through other days that were just the same.
Today I though I lost any hope when he fainted and was unconscious for more than 4 hours..Now watching him with that oxygen mask over his face is just ripping my soul apart. I know there are a lot of people in my shoes and I am sorry for that from the bottom of my heart. I have never been one to tell people my personal struggles, I have friends still that don't know the whole story because I don't like people's "poor you" looks. I don't want anybody looking or thinking differently about him just because he is battling this monster.
To be completely honest, I didn't think I would post anything on this platform, but seeing that one comment on the last post, a single one, gave me a little more strenght to carry on.
For anybody that suffers from this, or suffers along your loved ones, just know that I am here with my heart for all of you. I think that you should always have hope, no matter how hard it may seem. And I know you probably heard this a million times, I know that at some point it got frustrating hearing this because it seems like it's not enough and it seems like people don't really understand what you're going through and so they have nothing else to say..Oh, and worst of all, you have no one to blame. Wouldn't it be easier if you could blame someone? Anyone. Just channel all that frustration and anger you have on someone. But don't lose hope. It's the only way we can truly help.
I lost my train of thought writing this..maybe because it's been about 40 something hours since I last slept, but I hope that this helps someone reading it as much as it helps me writing it.
