Why....Why.....Why.....People don't understand. They say "pick yourself up and get back to work" work will solve everything. I have been so positive, affirmations, meditation, yoga and then all of a sudden..the rug goes out from under me......If it was just cancer I could deal with it....but renal failure on top of it......well I'm giving the bird to the universe.......I thought I was doing well 5 mths on.....thinking geez I have really got a grip on this and quite proud of myself........when does it stop? NEVER......