I haven't spoken to anyone since I finished treatment about much.
I obviously have a lot on my mind or else I wouldn't be here as an anonymous blogger. I'm due to see a CBT psych next week. She's a woman who has an ideal way of being for you to work towards.
I'm at the stage where I'm too tired to live in fear. It's unsustainable.
I've spoken to 2-3 young survivors of lymphoma. One who went through it 10 years ago.
It really helps to meet other young adult survivors. I'm still young medically speaking.
My fear is this: can I beat cancer and be okay physically after my body has been hrough so much. Can I regenerate? Could this indeed be a life changing experience, but a one off?
Last year, I assumed I would be around today. Today, I assumed the universe still wanted me.
Hope is what keeps us going.
