Five years ago my husband of 30 years passed away from pancreatic cancer. I have three children, at the time my eldest was at university and my youngest was just 14 years old. My husband was never diagnosed with cancer until after his death. We managed to cope through the two years he was ill and have managed to cope in the following five years since his death. I now find that my new partner, who had been a friend since before I was married, now has pancreatic cancer. How can I cope with this all over again!!! What have I done to deserve this? I felt that my new partner and I were 'meant to be' together and now this! I hope to find some strength with talking to others.
