Chronic Fatigue, 14th. January, 2015

[Shoonyananda_Sa]

Good afternoon to everyone. Sometimes we can overdo the appointments and arranging to "appease the disease". God knows how I made it through my breast cancer treatments. It's eight months since my last radiotherapy zap and I am having to cancel medical appointments. Accupuncture and appointment with the breast care nurse. Was re-prescribed the 12 morphine patches by my favorite chemo registrar, Tristan. This has made the pain-killing accupuncture redundant and not necessary. It was an easy choice not to go to see Dr Oh, rather to say "No!!". It was easy to not see the bcn too. Neither appointment seemed important this morning at 6am. This created a certain panic in a young carer of mine. She knows I am a stickler for arriving to my appointments, earlier than needed, so for me to not turn up was reason for her to send about 10 messages to the phone. I had switched the phone off, deciding to have a peaceful day of prayer and meditation. I needed to shut out the world and just have me to think about. I was just to darned tired to attend the appointments. I wanted/needed rest for the day. Easy day, relaxing and downloading some lovely meditations from Mark Davis of Inspired Hypnosis in UK. His meditations help my peripheral neuropathy and stress levels, giving me more self confidence and peace. I have no family support so am facing this aftermath of treatment alone. Friends all bailed. You probably know my story. Am online to maybe make friends with others sharing my story. Gods blessings to you all and will blog again soon.

[Shoonyananda_Sa]

16th January, 2015 8.19am Good morning one and all, Today is very different as I felt completely restored after switching the phone off and cancelling the two appointments on 14th. My enthusiasm to get my blood test results back couldn't be contained, as I dashed out the door at 8.20am, heading for the Day Unit at NSCC. I have chronic vascular and renal disease. My concern lay in my exercise routine being delayed during cancer treatments. I'm a candidate for heart attack and stroke so my focus in life is to exercise as often as possible. I cried not being able to exercise during treatments. My little body was a sitting target for these nasty medical events to happen. I caught public transport and walked to the Day Unit from the station and was delighted to read that my cholesterol and triglycerides are all normal. This made me very happy indeed. I guessed it must be the healthy diet and oat milk with walking around everywhere. I take the lazy way in the elevator sometimes but not always. I do go up one flight of stairs very slowly. I used to run up them before this breast cancer tired me out. Met Alex at the Exercise Clinic, Crows Nest and am very happy to know my exercises will be formulated exactly for my physical/mental capability. She was happy my bloods came back on such a positive note. My uncle died from heart and vascular disease, so am very aware of the possibility the same can happen to me. Am very calm, relaxed and peaceful as my soul mate visited me this morning too. All is well. I love myself unconditionally and accept myself just as I am. Blessings of Love and Light, Shoonyananda aka Kim 🙂