16th January, 2015 I understand completely about having to do everything yourself. I had to manage and maintain a household, the dog dying along with all the responsibilities of living, whilst having breast cancer treatments. I don't have family or friends supporting me but was able to visit the cancer psychologist and discuss my issues with her. Go to the community health centre and ask about having a carer come in to assist you with the housework. Have some time out. It is vital for you to have some respite care. May I suggest you also go online to Inspired Hypnosis and listen to Mark Davis' Deep Relaxation meditation. I listen to him and he has calmed me down completely. I cope much better. If you're an aussie and having anxiety attacks, please search for CRUFAD clinic online. You need a prescription from your GP but can do the course online. I've done it and no longer suffer from the physical symptoms or mental anguish anymore. Ask him to be a kind person to you. Tell him to err is human, to forgive is Divine. He's not God and is just being a rude nasty person. Ungrateful. I won't tolerate any behaviour like that from anyone. I love myself unconditionally and accept myself just as I am. I respect myself. I am empowered, beautiful, intelligent, compassionate, thoughtful and what others think of me is really none of my business. Hope all goes well for you this year and you get some time out. It will completely rejuvenate you. Get support and help in your home. God's blessings, Shoonya _/\_ :) ... View more

16th January, 2015 8.19am Good morning one and all, Today is very different as I felt completely restored after switching the phone off and cancelling the two appointments on 14th. My enthusiasm to get my blood test results back couldn't be contained, as I dashed out the door at 8.20am, heading for the Day Unit at NSCC. I have chronic vascular and renal disease. My concern lay in my exercise routine being delayed during cancer treatments. I'm a candidate for heart attack and stroke so my focus in life is to exercise as often as possible. I cried not being able to exercise during treatments. My little body was a sitting target for these nasty medical events to happen. I caught public transport and walked to the Day Unit from the station and was delighted to read that my cholesterol and triglycerides are all normal. This made me very happy indeed. I guessed it must be the healthy diet and oat milk with walking around everywhere. I take the lazy way in the elevator sometimes but not always. I do go up one flight of stairs very slowly. I used to run up them before this breast cancer tired me out. Met Alex at the Exercise Clinic, Crows Nest and am very happy to know my exercises will be formulated exactly for my physical/mental capability. She was happy my bloods came back on such a positive note. My uncle died from heart and vascular disease, so am very aware of the possibility the same can happen to me. Am very calm, relaxed and peaceful as my soul mate visited me this morning too. All is well. I love myself unconditionally and accept myself just as I am. Blessings of Love and Light, Shoonyananda aka Kim :) ... View more