I'm hoping that being online will help me deal with everything that is happening with my dad....It's heartbreaking watching someone you adore suffer so much.
I don't feel that I will be much help but keep posting and asking questions because you will get answers. Don't expect to be positive all the time and feel free to say what you need here as we all understand. It seems like your dad's operations didn't go as hoped .Surely something good is due to happen now. I will be thinking of you and your dad .
Thank you..
I just cannot handle seeing my dad like he is..
Dad was diagnosed in Feb 11 with cancer on the right vocal chord,
he began radiation in April, Mon to Fri for 3 weeks, dad seemed to breeze thru this, he had the usual symtoms, sore throat, sunburnt skin...We went for a follow up in July & it seemed that the cancer was gone.Then Dad had another follow up in early Set & there was a lump on the left vocal chord, dad went in for a biopsy & on Sept 23 we were told that dad will need a total laryngectomy..this knocked us for 6.......Dad went in on Sept 29 to have the op...things progressed as normal but 2 weeks later dad was given some water & it appeared the wound was not healing, so dad went in & had the muscle from his chest removed & placed over the wound in the neck...this failed & 2 weeks later dad was taken back to theatre to have the muscle from the other side of his chest removed & placed over the wound....this also failed. dad was then transferred to POW in Sydney for Hyper Baric treatments, we were all happy because we thought this would do the trick...Last week we were called to POW to be told the treatment will not work due to the chance that the cancer is still in dads neck..now we have to wait & see,we are bringing dad home next week so we can all spend time with him. They tell me that if the wound doesnt heal by itself thaere is a strong chance that it is the cancer stopping the healing...I just feel that they are sending dad home to die..this is something that Im not coping with at all. I pray everynight that things will change & dad will get better...I just dont know what else to do...
Sorry for rambling but it feels good to get all this out...
Thankyou, I feel better just being able to write on these blogs, almost feels like Im letting some of the emotions out that I hide when aIm trying to be strong in front of the family.
You poor darling, this is a terrible load for you to carry.
I went through a similar time with my dear dad 9 years ago. You don't know how you will stand the pain at the time, but you will. You need to travel this road with him and give him as much love and as much time with you as you can. Keep praying..What you are going through is incredibly hard... Take care of yourself too, find a close friend who can give you hugs. Mignon
It is a heavy load & very hard to stay strong, I find myself always thinking how my dad must be feeling, almost every day the dr's say different things but I always tell dad "stay positive" my darling dad just shakes his head....Tonight when I was visiting him at the hospital it really hit me hard, I walked out & cried all the way home, I'm just waiting to see what happens when dad comes home, I go back to work on Monday but I will stay each night at mum & dads just so mum isn't alone trying to care for dad, if it gets too hard for mum during the day I will resign from work & care for dad, my partner is my strength & he is 100% behind whatever decision I choose, I guess Im lucky to have him beside me....Sorry for raving, I find myself doing that a lot lately...just rambling on..maybe itss my way of coping...Thankyou for your comment, its comforting having a place like this to go to, to write how your feeling. Many blessing to you my friend & thankyou for listening...
