At 7.55pm on June 3, With me, his son, mum and dad, sister and brother in law Brent passed away. It was a beautiful good-bye. We had been with him constantly from Saturday, me sleeping in his room overnight listening to his dying breath. I thought I would be scared I worried that I wouldn't be able to support him to the end, I surprised myself. My love for him allowed me to hold him, kiss him and help him leave. Now even though I lived it and I watched it, I still can't believe that he isn't coming back. It's almost 2 weeks. I smile and laugh one minute, the next I'm crying my eyes out. Those last weeks were tough and I wished I could have made it Eire for him but I guess dying has to hard? I will cherish the cerebral intimacy we had. I will miss his friendship, intellect, wit and total commitment to me and ours. I will remember him everyday forever. And, one day in the future, I will stop crying.......
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Dear Jobeth , I haven't followed all your story but can tell from this post that you had a wonderful husband . I am sorry that you lost him in this way .
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Thinking of you each day. It will take time for your heart to heal, with half your soul gone. Take care Min Xo
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Oh Min, The grieving just keeps going, it's supposed to get better, it isn't. I'm back to work next Monday, 3 weeks on and I'm dreading it. Maybe a snap back to reality of everyday life will help, who knows? Thanks, I appreciate your kinds words. Jo xx
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He was a very loving and generous husband. Now that he is gone, all the hard work is over and I have time to reflect, it seems like an awful nightmare. Jo
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HI Thank you for sharing your story. For being so brave and finding special moments even in the toughest times. You have helped to give me hope for whatever happens. We are still doing okay 7 years in August. One day we will know how to beat this thing for good All the very best to you Irene
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Oh Jo Beth.... I just saw this post :( Oh honey, I have no words, xxxxx I wish I could give you a great big hug. May he forever rest in peace
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