I saw my doctor today and was told I have a 60/40 chance of a recurrence. This has rocked me a bit as I thought my stats were a bit better than that. I am feeling pretty depressed at the moment as my treatment ends next Monday and I feel very vulnerable. The conversation with him today was full of negatives in regard to what I can expect in my future. I don't know who to talk to about this - I have a huge lump in my gut and chest and I feel as if I am about to lose control. I am soooo scared and alone and I can't deal with this fear that is taking over my entire being. I have had 7 really harrowing months and I feel as if there is no end to this feeling of misery.
This is not a positive posting but I just need to put in writing how bad I feel and if anyone has any ideas on how to get through this I would be very grateful for your feedback.
Kind regards, Willow
