REALITY,

I have been diagnosed with stage 4 inoperable lung cancer which is subject to migrate. Makes a fellow wonder. The treatment plan is radiation followed with chemo, In the interim of all this my employer realizes and recommends to me that I should consider retirement. As of the 15th of August I am retired. And seemingly "In A Minute" became honorably  accepted into the community of senior citizenship. Literally

saying I fit the mold. In a few short weeks I have lost  my enjoyable energy levels . And have noticed my 

strength has diminished. I picked up my guitar the other day thought I might find my thoughts. The strength in my left hand, the one I use to make chords and finger the fret board. has weakened to the point it requires a serious attention to grip. In order to get some clarity from the strings. I think I can manage with a few daily  exercises.

This is becoming a challenge to comprehend.  And the one thing that confounds my thoughts the most.

I have never felt comfortable worried about me. I have been in the service of others all my life.  Today it seems that I may not be fit to continue in the way I am familiar with towards offering the helping hand.

There is much to do as I see it. Rainbow trout need to know I am still a threat and will stay close to the waters that be. There are countless camp fire to discover

 

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Wow hearing things from the other side. My beautiful partner just recently passed away with pancreatic cancer sadly. Hearing you speak about things your slowly not being able to do is a reminder of what i saw in my beautiful man. I understand fully what you are talking about, I hear you. Feeling for you. 

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