My name is Gillian (Gill). I lost my husband to stomach cancer in January this year. He was 40. We had a 14 month battle where we tried everything but unfortunately lost the fight. We have two children, Charlotte (6) and Tate (5). I am not sure why I am posting or what I am looking for - there is a loneliness that sets in at night which I am sure others can understand. I have plenty of friends who would come around for a chat. None of these replace my best friend, my mate, who I didn't need to talk to but was always there. That part of my life is missing, I know I can't replace him and I don't want to. I am not sure I have even grieved him going yet. I think the wall is still up - I still feel like I am talking about someone else's life. I am not sure I am ready to face the reality or the pain.
Thanks for reading, Gill.
Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.