There is so much to take in and so much going on in my head. Trying to stay positive, but also worrying about the worst. The ticking of that time bomb clock seems to get louder at night. It's often a see-saw from one emotion to the other. Your perspective on what is important in life can change so quickly. At least on here we can relate to each other on how you feel, and I know myself with sleep issues someone saying to you "you just need to relax" really doesn't help, it just makes you scream inside.
I am setting myself short term goals. I don't lock anything in for certain until closer to the date, but I make plans in my head for the next month or so.
According to the doctors my "expiration date" is in 7 weeks. I feel like a packet of food that has a use by date stamped on it. I feel that I am doing well, and I am going to be here for quite a while yet. I still have many things to do. I have my 40th birthday in November. I think I will have a big party. That will be something to celebrate.
I am silly for setting goals to far ahead??
