So this is my first post on this website.
I am a 22 year old female living in South Gippsland, Victoria.
My mother was diagnosed with Breast Cancer in May of 2015. So far we have concurred chemotherapy and surgery (lumpectomy). Coming up next month is radiotherapy.
Personally, I am struggling. I dont know how to cope anymore and deal with my mothers emotional roller coasters on a daily basis. I wake up not knowing whether she is going to be in a good mood or a bad mood. If im going to get yelled at or asked if we would like to have breakfast together or go for a drive.
How I have been feeling on a daily basis recently is useless. I feel like nothing I do is good enough, nothing I say is good enough. There seems to always be a problem, even when there isn't one, she will find one.
I feel as though if I polished the floors with a toothbrush, it still wouldn't be recognized or appreciated or once again, good enough.
I am sick of feeling pathetic and useless and unwanted and unappreciated and stupid and worthless.
How do I get my mother back? I miss my best friend. I don't know who this person in my mothers body is, its horrible and scary.
There is ALOT more to this story, this is just dot points. I didn't want to scare anyone off if I wrote a novel.
Anyone out there who thinks they can help me or just be a good listener, I would appreciate it more than you will ever know.
Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.